I hear ya, Meryl. Money has been the ranking system for society ever since trade began way back, when all there was to trade were goats and daughter's dowries. That was thousands of years ago, and money is still screwing people over, including myself. I hate the guilt, I hate how much school costs, I hate how much of a burden I am, but I can do nothing significant about it. I mean I have a job, but it pays Indiana minimum wage, which is hardly worth my time, but at least it pays for laundry detergent. Yeah Mom, that's my big contribution. I can do my own laundry. I just wish that life wasn't dependent on something so worthless as money. It skews my perspective on what's really important. For example, Dad suggested going to Japan next summer, and all I could think about was how that money should really be going towards my tuition, not some personal trip. He doesn't pay a dime of child support, yet he can afford to ship us both off halfway around the world? This is so incredibly unfair to Mom, who unfortunately has gotten used to being a single mom supporting two highly active children. All I can do to selfishly comfort myself is to secretly promise to buy her a nice house to retire in, once I get my dream job as a big time writer and publisher in Boston AND make bank doing it.
Here's to keeping expectations low.
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